I can’t keep doing this to myself. I’m an idiot for thinking I can trust anyone but jesus. Never. Again. (you said that last time.) yeah well.. I mean it this time. Totally done.

It’s been so… Refreshing. I’ve been avoiding it lately because I’ve been so bitter and hostile towards many people and I didn’t want anything to do with Him. Then I got mad because I didn’t want to be like that all the time. It’s not very pleasant. I started thinking about how sometimes I wish I wasn’t a Christian because then I could have fun doing worldly things and getting instant satisfaction from them. But then I felt dumb because i realized that it shouldn’t be about doing stupid reckless things for me to have fun. I need to set my eyes heavenward and have fun doing the things God wants me to do. He doesn’t want me to have a horrible time here. He wants me to take delight in the life He’s given me. Therefore, here’s a list of things I will attempt to start doing:

-take a look at details. Use my camera to do so.
-STUDY His word. Not just skim through it.
-start exercising so I can be in shape to do whatever work He wants me to do.
-don’t stay idle but take time to rest mentally, physically and emotionally. do that by drawing, singing, reading.
-pray for future husband.
-ask for prayer requests.
-JOURNAL.
-volunteer.
-lay out under the stars and talk to Jesus.

That’s all I’m going to put down for now. I should make a list of twenty things to do and then pick three things to do everyday. Chunk (:

If you need prayers, put them in my ask box and I’ll pray with you

-dejalenae-:

Lord, Your mercy is beyond anything I will ever understand. Far beyond anything that I deserve. Help me to appreciate Your perfect mercies every day.